The year of 2010 has been hectic.. Lots of stress and unwanted things.. Almost lost the love of my life.. And couldn't handle myself in a lady like manner.. My goal for 2011 is to learn to handle myself so much better. I hope to be able to prove this to my husband and let him know that he is my only one.. I have invited others to my home which was stupid.. I have argued about pointless things... I just keep fucking up more and more.. I need to get my life together and be a better person.. The new year is only a day away and I hope it goes smoothly.. I hope me and my husband can make things better as well as have everyone see that i am bettering myself for the love of my family.. My husband and I can make our marriage work we can have an amazing anniversary on Jan. 27th. And make the most of the new year.. My baby girl will be turning 4 and starting school. So much in my life is going to change with 2011... I got a job after being jobless for almost 3 years 2 jobs actually.. And I hope and pray that everyone around me can see the stuff I can and will bring into mine and my families lives.. I hope for less heartache and less stupid mistakes in my marriage.. I just want the best for my daughter and my husband and will do everything I can to make things right.... I am no longer a teenager and need to realize that. I just hope everyone around me can see that to. I hope to start school soon and become an RN and everything. If anything I just want to be a better person and have my family see I am not the "Stupid Girl" they thought I was. I want my husband to see that I am willing to make things work and do whatever it takes. Which I have already started.. I know this is my online diary open for everyone to read and I hope when you read this you can comment on it and give me feedback.. I am not sure how all this blogging works but I am sure eventually I will get better at it. Send me feedback to help me with myself.. To give me courage everythings going to be fine.. I just hope you all know that my goal in life has become so clear to me.. VERY clear. Where I can see a very bright future.. And I just hope my family and friends can see that out of me as well.
<3 Always,
Amanda
